Ama: Woman of the Sea (Excerpt)
Betrayal of Women by Women
Betrayal of Women by Women
It struck me deeply when I learned that white women would not generally, frequent the open slave markets during the centuries of the Trans-Atlantic Slave Trade of Euro-America. (1b) Yet it is known that the white women held their own "slave markets" at their houses, in order to appear more "ladylike" to the public. In other words; Euro-Christian women, watched, ordered, and knew of black women's unspeakable humiliation, torture, rape, and general oppression at the hands of their husbands - and joined in, "ladylike" of course. Women who went to church every Sunday; the church, whose existence only came about because of Christ's standard of Love, which is: "Even if they nail you to a cross unjustly forgive them(2a)." These same women, for centuries, participated wholeheartedly in nailing other women to crosses, for their own sakes. Even, in other ways, other than slavery, their own as well.
To be frank; a combination of historical timing, Greater Spiritual Responsibility and Burden, the rapid boost in technology, and a myriad of other deeply nuanced factors; Western women became the greatest traitors of their sex, in all of human history. To this day, it is Western (white) women predominantly, who are defending, too often viciously, this idea that a man can in fact be a woman if he feels like it, and a woman can change herself into a man, simply, if she desires. In other words, Western women are fighting and defending, tooth and nail, like they have for centuries, the "right" to destroy themselves.
Facing the Fire
Western women faced their own genocide for centuries in Europe, by the Catholic Inquisition, long before the Trans-Atlantic African Slave Trade. Yet, ultimately, they embodied the cruelty of their tormentors in the many centuries afterwards. The question is, why is that? Arguably, they, as a collective, have inflicted more prolonged torture on non-Western women over the centuries, than they ever suffered.
The Exploitive Author will probably never face the fact that, in large part, her justification for robbing me is deep down, of a racist nature, and origin.
From sheer life experience, I have seen hundreds of times this pattern: A white person can justify cruel acts, or injustices of any kind, more readily inflicted on a non-white person, than they are compulsively willing to justify towards white people.
Westerners can not, as a collective, face the pathology of racism in their race. So much so, they call other inanities "diversity," rather than Face the Fire.
"The white skinny bitch inside me hates the plump colored girl inside me…"
These are words spoken by a biracial woman to me, in a momentary flash of insight into the illness buried within the Western psycho-pathology.
Western women's torment towards them, and oppression by their own, included millions of stake burnings. Obviously, as a collective, Western women never got over the trauma, and terror of this past oppression. At what point did the European (turned Christian) woman, as a collective, "decide" to fall into bitterness, and join in their husband's pillaging? I don't know exactly. But it happened nonetheless.
European women's Old Ways like all Ancient Ways since Time Immemorial, understood something about what I have come to understand and call "The
Root Mother's Journey:"
The Root Mother's Journey
The first time that I read the fairytale Bluebeard I was probably about ten or eleven years old. I remember being so frightened; my heart racing and sweating a cold clammy sweat, I slammed the book shut and ran outside into the beautiful sunlight, and let the beautiful day calm my heart, mind and entire Being.
The medicinal art of storytelling is at the core of the most ancient healing and religious traditions in the world. This tradition is known still, as "The Medicine Wise Woman Tradition." At the core origins of the Root Mother Legacy, is the once considered, since time out of mind, holy practice of channeling story. In essence a storyteller is not “making up a story.” The Medicine Wise Woman and Healer would become a channel for Soul and Creator to convey deeper intra-psychic patterns within the individual and collective psyches. In the many times complex weavings of archetypal symbolism, they are applying deep and ancient medicine that supplies the human being as well as the collective societies with spiritual and psychological road-maps with all the elements needed to ultimately take ownership of their own lives; by reclaiming the fundamental, eternal territory that belongs to the Soul and its Creator.
After almost two decades since the fairytale Bluebeard informed and imprinted deeply in me as a child that there were necessary truths that needed tracking and uncovering to understand the devastation in my childhood; the story came to me again, and this time with a very powerful and simple message: “This time, we are getting to the bottom of this.”
In the original story of Bluebeard, the main male character in the story has a blue beard, that informs the innocent, young maiden that his charm is acting as a cover for something very off about him, and as we find out, actually something deeply evil.
As I began to realize that these sacred story medicines wanted to tell themselves through me, “Bluebeard” became “The Glass-Eyed Gentleman.” He anecdotally tells his romantic interests about how he lost his eye in a war. The romantic interests notice that the very unsettling reality is that his glass eye is almost undetectable, except that it’s the only eye of the two that carries any tiny sign of humanity. But they brush it off as perhaps their inability to “accept differences and diversity.” In my life experience and through the process of waking up, discerning, and finally tracking and rightfully accusing one one of the abusers and child molesters in my life; my grandfather; Bluebeard, channeled through my psyche and Being, naturally has a glass eye the way my grandfather did in his youth.
The Glass-Eyed Gentleman in the story gives his eventual, new young bride the many, many keys to his huge castle deep in the woods, now, their home. He tells her that she can open and enter any room except one, whose key is a small, curious and distinctive one. Her glass-eyed groom then goes away for a while.
The young maiden, curious and full of a new sense of adventure, sets about opening and entering every room in the castle save for the forbidden room. When she finally has only the forbidden room and its corresponding key left to explore, her curiosity and sense of adventure at this point are pushing her to throw all caution to the wind; she unlocks and opens the forbidden chambers.
The sight that meets her is nothing short of horrifying: The room is filled with the blackened, bloody, decapitated bodies of the glass-eyed gentlemen’s former brides. The new bride speechless with horror slams the door shut and immediately tries to hide what she’s done. But the small key belonging to the murder chamber won’t stop bleeding. Try as she might, she can’t get any remedy, bandage, or desperate pleas or cries to get it to stop bleeding.
Eventually, her husband comes home and discovers her disobedience, and proceeds to drag her down to the chambers by the hair, making it clear it is her turn to die. But she’s able to trick him into buying more time. She goes to her bed-chambers and starts praying and crying out for her brothers. Her brothers appear on the horizon in a cloud of dust as they gallop to their sister’s rescue. Just as her glass-eyed husband screams that she’s out of time, and begins to ascend the spiraling steps to her bed chambers, her brothers come barreling in and proceed to slaughter the glass-eyed murderer, and in the process his glass-eye is dislodged from his skull socket and shatters on the stone floor of the castle into a million pieces.
This ancient, powerful folktale, carries the very essence of The Root Mother’s story, and therefore the story and journey of all women, her daughters, and with that the inevitable male journey, also from capture, a dance with the predator, and finally the journey back to the Soul and its Creator.
The Root Mother’s message and lessons at their most fundamental, start with: The reality of an ancient, intra-psychic predator makes it so the innocent and the holy will very early on experience capture and defilement. The bloody chambers are our collective, ancestral, as well as inevitably personal, wounds, secrets and traumatic undercurrents. The very act of the inter-psychic “marrying” of the Glass-Eyed Gentleman is, in this world, most times completely unavoidable. Since the The Root Mother, our First Mother was unable to avoid being tricked, and instead, as her ancient stories inform us, was forced, through her own naivete and in the end, choice, to take a bloody route in a captured dance with the predator on her way back to divinity and freedom; such is the reality of our human journey. The fact that the The Root Mother could be tricked; if such purity, of which our very beginnings and essence derive from, could fall victim to such a force, that isn’t Creator, yet seems to be able to wield some unseen power nonetheless; this informs us that absolutely anyone, through our free will, can knowingly or unknowingly choose this path. In other words, no one is special, we are one river, made up of divinely unique individuals, on our way back to True Love, The Original Heart, or in Korean we say “Shim Jeong,” together.
This deeply grooved pattern and path, has become both the poison and the cure. Like untangling a deeply tangled knot or removing a bullet from the wound; whether as a result of necessary or unnecessary pain and/or violence, the only path to healing is back through the same pathway or wound entry that created the emotional, spiritual and/or physical hemorrhaging in the first place.
Most of our lives tend to be a cyclical process, that if we strive to, of becoming more and more adept at re-entering wounds; personal ones, collective and ancestral ones. Walking with the Root Mother who knows this journey inside-out, back-to-front, above and below, is a journey encoded in our bones. Our only true chance of healing is if we awaken to it; that we dare to disobey the predator’s orders to essentially not awaken to reality and instead be compliant and remain un-initiated. We can potentially develop a skill set more precious than diamonds that can eventually spot right away, that the Glass-Eyed Gentleman’s glass eye is not a result of being a valiant soldier; but that when a glass eye has more humanity than his a real one, we recognize him for who he is, not who he skillfully pretends to be. In this way we not only free ourselves over and over from this existential pattern, but we pave the way for the many generations to come, and also free our ancestors and the past from perpetuating unresolved pain.
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In Modern Western Female Culture, there is no “Through the Fire.” But the tragic, crippling absence of this, has been due to erosion of the Sacred Feminine and Root Mother in the West, for centuries. When Euro-Christian women joined in their husband's pillaging, they sealed their fate, eventually, in total self annihilation.
Too often, Modern Western Women live one-third or smaller, splintered "truths," and lives. Indeed, predominantly white Christian Churches today, are fragmented further than they've ever been, in standards and beliefs; they can not agree on the fundamentals of the Holiness and Teachings of their Faith, about Family, and Sexuality - the Root Centers of Human Existence. Predominantly white females start and engage in toxic fighting and rivalries concerning women's medical health and wellness.
A rampant female reproductive disorder PCOS, in America and the overdeveloped West, has a common manifestation in the females with this ailment; and that common factor is that they hardly produce a central, female hormone called progesterone. (1c)
Why is this important to our Journey Through the Fire? Progesterone has two major tasks in the female system: 1) To help thicken the endometrium in preparation for conception/egg fertilization, and 2) To prevent the overgrowth of the endometrium, and keep the production of estrogen in check/balance.
I find this fascinating; in other words, progesterone is "Death in Life," it is as generative as it is degenerative. Women with PCOS suffer a myriad of ailments that can run on a spectrum, in the same woman, from mild, to severely degenerative and debilitating. They suffer from cysts on their ovaries as a result of the ovulation process being damaged; usually from yes, poor diets and overall trauma, but predominantly due to over-medicalization.
There is no coincidence that Western women suffer from this disorder in a rampant way; because entrenched in the collective psyche, and therefore manifested biology and health of Western(ized) women, is the disorder of "over-production," or "constant-production."
They can not face, or "disobey" the Glass-Eyed Gentleman's treachery.
The Glass-Eyed gentleman rules the roost, especially in this day and age- in and among individual Modern women's psyche's, as well as their collective psyche's and behavior.
The Masculinization of Women and Feminizing of Men, was not the Solution
A study about men's vs. women's responses towards two rape cases, I find deeply enlightening; and assists in unlocking the door to the Carnage Room of the Glass-Eyed Gentleman's castle. (1d)
Essentially, men and women were presented with two cases of rape; one in which a married woman, who was a social worker was attacked walking home in the dark, and the other was a divorced topless dancer, who had also, suffered rape. The topless dancer also had several other problems in relation to the law, and her personal criminal behavior/history.
The study showed that the perception of how "serious" the rape was for the males, was deeply affected by how they saw the rape victim, especially in regards to her social status and sexual respectability. Essentially, the males generally, did not perceive the rape of the topless dancer, to be as serious a crime, as the rape of the married social-worker.
The females however, assigned equal seriousness in both rape cases. The burden of "responsibility" of the victim however, was a bit more nuanced than the male's assigned burden of responsibility towards the victims; that was, according to the rape victim's social standing and perceived sexual respectability.
Compound Pain
The average Western(ized) female's response to the outcomes of the study, are tragically, extremely predictable. The reason I not only say this, but know this, is because, in my life experience, I've gotten to know, the agonizing way, the pathology of the Western Female; she can be anywhere from- relatively, harmlessly sheltered- to downright viciously infantile.
The average Western Female's reaction to the outcomes of the study, would be outrage towards the men, for overall, assigning humanity to a woman according to their perception (or reality) of her sexual respectability, and social standing.
This is an understandable reaction overall, however, only for a young(er) woman (15-26), is it truly appropriate. Unfortunately, I know through experience that Western women in their 30's, 40's and 50's would react totally as if they were a young woman, and often, will not hear of any other viewpoint on the matter.
Women's pain is what I've come to understand as "Compound Pain." The pain is so often complex, because it comes from unresolved, complex, and compounded grief and trauma, and not just resulting from an individual woman's personal internal state. This is because we carry feminine grief, pain, rage, triumph and unending love, deep within, generationally, as well as a collective.
Western women must grow up. Shamelessness has compounded our shame.
On one hand, it is at times, excessively more difficult to be a woman in this world, than it is to be a man; and the injustices of societal treatment, and assigned punishment sometimes inflict (and generationally have inflicted) unspeakable pain, guilt, trauma and humiliation on women. There is no denying, or getting around this, if one is to actually be honest with themselves, and frankly, were to face reality. However, for the last, at least forty to fifty years, Western(ized) women have created enough of their own fodder, for worsening, and further compounding the already complex pain and dynamics among women, and our dynamics in the world.
The Exploitive Author, although perhaps having more maturity on average over the females in her culture at large; somewhere along the way, decided perhaps, that she was "finished" maturing. "Coincidences" of the sort that unearthed, and exposed her thievery to me- to any woman, (or man) with actual life experience and maturity- are signals that something is not as it seems. That there is more to this person, situation etc. than originally we perceived. Essentially, it is either a person manipulating a situation to create a facade over the actual situation, or it is a Divine Intervention and Happening. It could very well be the latter, or both…
Either way, her reaction was infantile; like a small child being caught with her hand in the candy jar, and when caught saying, "It's not me!" Or the child having chocolate on her face, and denying having been the one to cause the chocolates in the jar to diminish in number.
The fact that she feels safe lying in this way, as a grown woman, mother, wife, and successful Author, only illuminates more clearly and glaringly, how abandoned certain parts of her maturing process have become over the years. But what makes it worse, is that she can easily, as a Western woman, find, keep, and establish an environment around her that encourages it.
Asian women, particularly ones from Asia, would call out her bullshit faster than she can fully blink. The reason for this is because Asian cultures, for better and for worse, understand the value, and at least keep the concept and practice of shame alive and well in the cultures.
Modern Western women often can not fathom why an Asian woman accepts her "position" in life, especially in relation to her husband. Of course they perceive this through their Western lense, philosophy, experience and mentality, and are missing a lot of internal information that exists deep within the Asian woman's life, and the culture, and history at large.
But fundamentally, Western women are in a constant state of toddler to teenage "rebellion," in their minds and in their collective culture. The "culture" they actively push and "establish" for "everyone." The power of having ancient cultural roots, is that overall, a woman has the elements she needs; that her maternal ancestry laid down for her, thousands of years ago, to accept the "Death in Life," and "Through the Fire" foundational aspect of the Sacred Feminine.
There is power in the "Traditional" roles of the sexes. This is not to say that "progressive" ideas are not important to the growth and forward movement of the human family; but an Asian woman knows innately, that her "Traditional" role in marital dynamics is one extremely important thing: A Root System, or An Anchor. Only from this place, can she truly "progress." In this sense there is a deep understanding that there is such a thing as being too free. If women (and men), but firstly women, because they set the tone for men and all of humanity, are "too free," all Life fails.